I feel inspired today by my younger self. She persevered through all her struggles for so long and kept a smile on. It all came crashing down when I was diagnosed with psychosis but that isn’t what I want to focus on tonight. I want to focus on my fashion sense as a twenty something. I always pulled myself together beautifully when I was healthy. I still have all those clothes they just don’t fit my new body. I am coming back to the fashion world a different person.

I have so many heels that I can’t wear right now due to a back injury. I have these velvet knee high stiletto boots that I had fixed hoping someday I can wear them again.

I am going to go out looking for some leather knee high boots because that has always been part of my wardrobe and my old pairs are to far gone to take to the shoe maker.

Right now my shoe fashion is mainly sneakers and shoe boots. Even the shoe boots cause me back pain. But I’m working on filling my closet with looks that will last through time and really reflect all the changes I’ve made in my life.

I work at Reitmans a company I love and really love the message they are sending to women. Some stores I used to shop at in my twenties I can no longer shop at because their clothes don’t fit my body type anymore and it’s been hard to wrap my head around that.

As I slowly lose more and more weight I feel my energy levels rising to what they used to be when I was younger. That magic is coming back to my life. That childish romanticism and love of life. When I’m taking lots of pictures and singing songs out of the blue I know I’m in a good place because I’m loving life and lavishing in everything wonderful about the world. Beauty in nature, in people, in clothing. I’ve just been so aware recently of the beauty in life itself. Everything seems new and exciting. Work, my love life, my friendships, my city all look different in the 5:00 darkness. And I’m loving it.