I’ve found renewed energy for my creative outlets. My novel Skylet is up to almost 10,000 words. I am on chapter 10. I’ve promised myself to work on it each night at least writing one chapter. I also have been steady at the gym since April, I’ve lost 69 pounds with diet and exercise. I started a new job at a Quartz company and am really happy with the move. I work with a great team of people and really enjoy my job. I do a lot of different things that keeps me busy and productive. And my hours are perfect, 9:30-4:30. Usually I show up by 9:10 make my coffee and check my emails before I start the day. So much has changed for me this year and I know it’s because I’ve practiced discipline. Discipline with the gym, discpline with my diet, discipline with my journaling and discipline with getting enough sleep. I’ve read 32 books this year and had so many precious moments with my partner, family and friends.

I think this renewed energy in my creativity is because of my new routines. They have added so much value and calm to my day. I’m doing all the things and feel energized, not burnt out. Exercising has renewed my energy and my strength. Losing weight has made such a different on my joints. I feel young again. I still have some lingering nerve pain but it’s down to such a minimum that I don’t notice it most of the time.

I try and listen to motivation YouTube videos and watch lifestyle YouTubers to romanticize an active, healthy lifestyle. Most days I do 11,000 plus steps on top of my workout. Like the song says “I’m feelin myself.” And all it took was taking the first step. First I went to the doctor and got the instructions on how I should be eating as someone with PCOS. I picked my favourite foods and easiest foods to make and started eating only these foods. I started with a few days at the gym and now do 4 or 5. Days I don’t go to the gym I still get in 11,000 plus steps. This is because of my walk in to work from the bus which I really enjoy and am grateful I get half my steps in early in the morning. And that is what I want to say to you reader. All it takes is that first step. How did I write a chapter a day? I opened my computer and wrote one sentence. I promised myslef I would make headway in my novel by writing everyday. Not everyday has to be good. But putting the words down and getting the story to move is how I will complete the book.

A girl from my high school just recently bought my short story off of Amazon. She messaged me to congratulate me on publishing a book and to let me know she bought a copy. I was at first self concious because I wrote this short inner dialouge at such a young age that I don’t know how it will be taken. But I’ve since realized I needed to publish this book good or not to put myself out there and achieve my goal. With every word I write I become a better writer. And taking that step at such a young age is such an accomplishment and this girl who bought my book reminded me of that.

So now I will go make a coconute matcha latte and maybe watch one of my YouTuber’s before going to sleep.