So a lot of my posts lately have been about self improvement, self love, choosing yourself. It’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about lately since I’ve been focusing on my goals for 2025. So my question is do you choose yourself? Do you take the necessary steps to become the person you know you are deep down?

There is this song Devil Inside by CRMNL. It is about all of us having a little bit of evil inside “tearing you apart in the middle of the night.” I like this song because to me it unites us all. We all have made mistakes. We all have regrets. But they don’t have to dictate who you can be now or in the future. You can become a different person, a better person. You can make a list of the values you want to embody and then move forward living in this new way. Change is a part of life. And if we aren’t changing then we aren’t growing. I don’t want to be the same person at 40 as I was at 25. Not to say you can’t start over. If you want to change your career or change your path at 40 that doesn’t make you a failure. To me that makes you brave. You know the life you made isn’t working for you anymore and you take the steps to become the person you now want to be.

I’ve made many mistakes in my life. And I could sit in bed and cry about them or be stubborn and stay stuck in my old ways. Stay stuck in my old belief system that this is who I am and nothing can change that. The truth is YOU can change that. You have the power to change your life everyday by just taking one small step. Whatever that step is for you depends on the life you secretly dream of for yourself. At 36 I’m back at the person I was at 17. I said that on one of my other blogs. But that doesn’t mean I’m the same naive person and unexperienced person. It just means I re-realized my dreams. I reconnected with that younger version of myself and found there was a lot to love about her. And I wanted to bring some of that back into my current reality. I try and channel her. Her energy, her aura, her light. And she was me… she is me. So that energy has always been within me.

I’m not afraid to look at my past and say hey that isn’t the way I want to live now. That isn’t who I am at my core. I made bad decisions… I went through some hard times… I hurt people… I was hurt by people… but I can live better today. I can be THAT GIRL. And for me THAT GIRL is the person that I envisioned myself becoming when I was 17. Maybe that picture is a little bit different now. There are new goals to be added, lessons I learned that changed my perspective. But the overall arching theme of being loving to myself and to others and being authentic and not letting peoples opinions affect me is really what I want for myself. Journaling, working out, meditating, reading… these are things I’ve done my whole life. Maybe not always consistently but they are things that are important to me. Writing for myself, on my blogs, writing a novel… these are things I always saw myself doing. And sometimes that devil inside comes up. I have a negative thought… I’m angry about something… I’m remembering something from the past. But the difference is I turn inwards to my light and change what I’m thinking. I live in love. And it is really beautiful.