Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

It’s just a moment. A moment in time. And you are mine. Hold me closely. Palms touch. Cheeks blush. And I say I love you. A finger wrapped around mine. Our hands intertwine. Your lips touch me. They touch my skin. And I feel a hum. I feel a sensation. Deep in my skin. A burning desire. Your eyes like fire. Gaze into mine. And my blood pumps through my veins. Heart beating faster, with every touch. I love this rush. This rush of blood.

And I pump the iron. I feel my muscles tense and grow. The pump makes my blood flow. Each step faster then the next and I can feel the heat radiate off my flesh. Up, down. My arms are all around. Lifting weights. Pulling, pushing, pulsing. And I think of you. Your body. Just us two. Adrenaline rush. And I have to lay down.

The aching of my muscles, wake me each day. An ache I long for. And I turn over to see you. Graze your your back with the tips of my fingers. See you awaken with a smile. And with you each night I walk a mile. A mile here, a mile there, 2km, we walk everywhere.

And I stand on my tippy toes. My lips against your nose. And you love me with your warm embrace. I finally found my saving grace. I found it in a sunset. I found it in an ocean wave. I found it in a blade of grass. I found it looking the other way. And I changed my life. Not for you but for me. And I look in the mirror. What do I see? Strength, beauty, a white hair. Into my eyes I stare. Growing older each day. And my cheeks glow. A glow I feel from my heart. A glow I feel from deep within. This feeling, deep within my skin. And thinking of you I come undone.

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

Nights

Looking for you

On the street

Hiding from the world

Sitting in a dark room

Lyrics that speak to me

I’m the wrong girl

I’m the light fading away

I’m the one that got away

Away from the devil

Away from the dark

Away from a black heart

Black black black nights

A love affair or two

Finding something

While I was waiting for you

Finding darkness

Pleasure and pain

Finding myself

Writing in vain

Broken to pieces

Shattered on the floor

Picked up one at a time

Creating a door

A door you came to

And opened wide

A door you took

With every stride

You strode into my heart

Even though we spent years apart

I have years now with you

I write about us two

How you take my breath away

How I see you everyday

First thing in the morning

Last thing at night

My heart flutters

I know this is right

And in the darkness

I come through

A new version

And now

I’m with you

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

I can’t tell you something that isn’t real

My heart bleeds out

Like the words on a page

My feelings

Coming out

And then blowing away

In a wind

That forever blows

The words fall out

The feelings come

And then they pass

Like time

Like the perfect crime

The days pass

The clock ticks

And my heart opens again

Once more

I open up the door

To my soul

To my heart

Always wanting

A fresh start

Me and you

Just us two

A start that comes everyday

A start that hasn’t faded away

The love I feel

Everyday

Flowing out of me

Never met anyone

Like you before

For you

I opened my door

And you kept me safe

You kissed my forehead

You layed in my bed

And I found you

Unexpectedly

You changed my perspective

Touched my heart

Put me together

When I fell apart

You held out your hand

Lovingly

And I took it

At first reluctantly

But now you shine

Life into me

A new vision

For the future is clear

Just you and me

Here

Living life

A vision so bright

I smile each morning

I wake up next to you

And smile

At all the little things you do

The words fall out of my mouth

So freely

And it’s only you I see

When I look through the window

And into my soul

You have touched me

In ways you’ll never know

And it scares me

How free I feel

How different I am

Than before

Since you came knocking

At my door

So grateful

So loved

So graceful

Like the wings of a dove

Flapping through the air

Flying with no care

I look down

And see the world

See the girl

That I used to be

Come to life

Inside of me

Inside out

From the rooftops

I shout

That we are together

Forevermore

To my old life

I close the door

A fresh chapter

A starting page

Ready for a new story

A new day

And you take my breath away

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

I’m at your feet

Begging for forgiveness

Sins of the past

Memories

That won’t last

They won’t last a lifetime

They won’t haunt me forever

Soon to be cast out

Like I cast out the devil

From my soul

With an evil grin

He has no control

I’m in my mind

In my body

I feel my soul

I’m in control

Control my senses

Control my mind

Control the meaning I find

And this is life

Changing

Forever new

Forgetting the demons

Doing things I want to do

Living a life

Blessed with love

Blessed with forgiveness

Blessed with me

The girl I used to see

The one I lost so long ago

Came knocking on my door

She’s back in control

17 year old me

I can’t believe

She’s the girl I see

In the mirror

Looking back at me

An old soul

Younger next year

I’m 17 again

And I feel free

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

Links to the past

How long will they last

Visions of the crowd

Singing as I vowed

Never to let it come to this

An ending

That plays in my head

An ending

And a story that I dread

To remember

Looking backing

It’s September

I’m dancing in a crowded room

Listening to a song of doom

But I got mine

You may get yours

But today isn’t about bitterness

Isn’t about yesterday

Isn’t about a game

I used to play

Forgiveness

And a smiling face

I met my saving grace

And my life is forever changed

On a path

That I praise

Looking up at the sun

Wondering why it took so long

For me to come undone

Undone and reborn

There is no one left scorn

Waited so long

For a new day to come

And my mind

Running on overdrive

Today I feel so alive

Energy

Love

Forgiveness

Like an old drug

Days in the dark

Long passed

And as I said

I live renewed

I have a new mood

I hope it rubs off on you

That you can feel good too

That you smile everday

That you live for love

And every new gray

Hair on your head

Aging gracefully

And one day

We’ll all be dead

So forgive and forget

Lucky you will get

A matcha tea infront of me

A blank page

Music in my ears

And I won’t shed a tear

Life has just begun

Getting older

Like the sun

Each day I shine bright

And let you all

Touch my light

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

Stones

Rippling on water

Stacked tall

Stones so small

Soft texture

Worn by time

Stoney water

These stones of mine

Some are red

Some are grey

Some are made of clay

These stones

A part of the world

A part of life

Lasting forever

Changing each day

Eroding through weather

Different shades of gray

I’m like a rock

Sitting at the shore

Water running over me

Changing me evermore

Smoother and smoother each day

All my imperfections

Fade away

These stones of mine

In my pocket

Carrying them through time

Just like a stone

I am ever changing

Each day

Peeling back the layers of my skin

Refreshing and new

Smoother

Nicer to look at too

These stones of mine

The stories they could tell

Should I take them to the market

To buy and sell

Like the stones of a mountain

Or the stones on the ocean floor

Our essence will last

Forevermore

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

Affirmations

Night and day

Living a life

That once seemed a world away

Hot coffee in the morning

Writing in a journal or two

Focusing on my breath

Every morning with you

As I sit and ponder

My life’s purpose

I see many paths I can take

Many paths that have been lay before me

Some taken, some left behind

Some waiting for the passage of time

I went on a journey to change myself

Find my center

Cast my demons out

But here I stand

Stronger than ever before

Living a life

Of peace and more

I work on my body

Work on my mind

Save my money

And am mindful of my time

Some will laugh

Some will ignore

Some will be inspired

And strive for more

Each day I map out

Where I want to go

The things that make me

Internally glow

Words of wisdom

Nights of calm

Time of reflection

I listen to a song

A song of power

A song of pride

A song of strength

Enjoying life’s ride

And each mountain I’ve climbed

Has made me strong

My mistakes

I’m every song

They made me into

The woman I am

Happily ever woman

Get with the program

Happily Ever Woman

Happily Ever Woman

New beginnings

Stretching out

Through me

I gaze at the hills

That life has blessed me with

Flowers pink

Grass green

I walk in happiness

So much to live for

Books to read

People to see

Paths to walk

Love surrounding me

New beginnings

Changing my world

Life is a Milky Way swirl

Stars above me

Moon alight

Walking briskly

Through the night

Loving homestead

Loving stare

Love encompassing

All that is there

New beginning

New life

I smile